Psychedelic story spotlight: messages from ayahuasca

revelations from one of my many journeys

June 2022. It was my second night. And I had to leave the circle again and go into another room, which wasn’t recommended, but it was just what I needed. I mean I was not much of a purger anyways, but I did have uncontrollable shaking. It was like there was massive energy moving through me. I was shivering like I was freezing cold without actually having temperature fluctuations. At that moment and in that state of consciousness, I could not have even comprehended what hot vs. cold was anyways.

I crawled into another room where the wood felt smooth and cool. Suddenly, the energy was forcing me into these contortions, these movements that forced me down to the ground in a prayer position, grounding into whatever the medicine wanted. Like I was praying to a Mayan god depicted in hieroglyphics.

Suddenly, when I looked over, sitting there in this random wooden room was a giant plant - no surprise right? 

The plant instantly started talking to me and showing me visions. The first thing the plant said was,

“Well, it’s a nice change to be able to converse with you in your native tongue tonight.”

I said with a smirk and a giggle,

“I guess it is pretty crazy to be able to talk to you in English finally.”

The plant responded,

“You're on the same vibration as us right now, but, you understand our language anyways. The truth is, we talk to you all the time and sometimes you don't even listen because you are moving so fast. But, we're always talking. Now, you have a mission and it's to be a voice for us. You have to be with us way more often than you think you do. Everything in your life is about plants. It's why you retreat from people. It's just because you want to be with us, your family. You are one of us. And don’t worry, we know you want to reincarnate into a plant and you will.”

I was shocked. But, being me and my self-deprecating character I said,

“I'm sure there are so many other more special people that you can talk to and have this same mission.”

The plant said,

“You don't seem to realize what a gift this is. We don't choose many people. We don't have many people that talk to us the way that you do. There are some but not many. So many come from ego, and you don’t. You are special.”

I had a moment of realization that I had truly never felt special my entire life. I've never felt that I was gifted or talented enough. I knew I was unique, but I never felt simply ENOUGH.

Just as the moment came full circle, one of my beautiful guides Veronica found me and asked if I wanted to go outside and get some fresh air. I don’t know how long I was away from the circle, but I was glad someone knew I needed to be closer to nature once again. I don’t know what time it was either, anywhere between 1am and 5am I could say. But, all I could see was the fog rolling over the mountains towards the sea.

I turned to Veronica and I said,

“This is my favorite time of year in California. I love the gloom. I love the fog. I mean, isn't it fascinating that this fog comes out of nowhere? That earth itself creates this fog out of thin air in the middle of the night and at the opportune moment, it's suddenly time to release it. When the sun begins to peek through the clouds, there is the light fog hanging over the dewy morning. And the fog is here to moisturize the plants. California is preparing itself for the dry spell of summer. The fog is communicating with the plants to ensure that they stay alive for the heatwave in the next few months. California is her own organism.”

Veronica was stunned. She told me she had never thought about or heard anyone explain nature that way. We continued to speak about plants and beautiful topics. But, after that, we both could not stop staring at the fog, mesmerized by how incredible nature is.